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Where ‘Awkwardness’ is the name of the game. Or just the story of my life.

5 Things I Probably Shouldn’t do but Plan on Doing Anyway-This Weekend. June 23, 2007

Filed under: Life,Randomness,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 1:35 pm

Prompted by Elliot’s comment way back when, I decided to post 5 things I Probably Shouldn’t do but Plan on Doing Anyway- This Weekend. There is a longer list of things I most likely shouldn’t do but will probably anyway, but here are 5 that I think this weekend probably has in store.

  1. Drive to Washington. Me + Driving long distances = potential disaster. Not because I am a bad driver, but rather because I am directionally challenged.
  2. Drive back from Washington. You’d think that after driving somewhere it would be easy to get back, but that is not the case. I find I am twice as likely getting lost on the way home than I am on the way there.
  3. Give my graduation gifts. Teehee. Not sure how this particular one will go over.
  4. Drive back to Washington. Once you go somewhere once, it seems like getting there a second time would be easier. But I have found that I am 36.54% more likely of getting lost on my way somewhere far away for the second time than I am of getting lost on the way back from that place the first time.
  5. If I make it past these first 4, I figure I’ll do something drastic very quickly, as the kind of luck I will have to have to make it this far will probably only come about once in a lifetime.

So there ya go.


Graduation June 9, 2007

Filed under: graduating,Life,Randomness,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 10:12 pm

There were three things I was thinking of during graduation.

  1. A Gateway MX8734 17″ widescreen notebook.
  2. How I wished my name was something like the kid in the front row’s name. “Nathan John Henry Keller-Smith the 4th.” Seriously. Say that aloud and drink in the impressiveness. Instead I had to be “Brianna Taylor.” Just not note worthy next to Mr. Keller-Smith there.
  3. The kid next to me and his obsession with beach balls.

Good times. but by golly, I am now a graduate… W00t.

The Graduate

And don’t I look smart…


Not So Sentimental Reality Check. June 7, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,graduating,Life,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 3:35 pm

Alright. I have to say, after staying in chem until 4:30, I am feeling less sentimental, more euphoric.


ahahaha… /me continues to laugh manically…


Sentimental Daydreaming

Filed under: Deep Moments,graduating,Life,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 10:25 am

Here I am. On the computers in the back of the library, using Firefox. This year has come full circle. Another strange person is sitting next to me muttering incoherently, and I have to admit I’m getting a tad sentimental. I’ve found myself in this place many a time over this school year, and quite frankly, it’s a smidge depressing that life has changed that little.

But then I think. While it seems like just yesterday I emailed about how weird my first day of the year was, it was really 9 months ago. /me drops jaw. That freaks me out. A lot has happened since then. I see three major changes in my life.

  • I’ve become kind of a geek. Alright, more of a geek anyway. For sure. I <3 my computer (tho it could use some major upgrades…. lots and lots of upgrades…). I do more on the computer than I thought I would ever, what with starting blogging, talking to friends, typing more papers than I thought was possible… crazy.
  • Gotten to know people better =) Makes me happy.
  • Some of my views and ideas about things and people have shifted… drastically… I will leave that one broad as a lot falls under this category.

So there you have it. My three main changes. There may be more? I dunno, you tell me. I do feel like I’ve done a lot in the last year tho. I mean

  • Black belt
  • Graduating early
  • Wednesday rituals (phutwa!!)
  • Good friends
  • snowboarding
  • Some awesome search engine terms
  • A relatively successful and thoroughly stress relieving blog to rant on
  • umm. some more stuff…
  • some good parties and stuff…
  • awesome debates and perfect randomness
  • movie nights
  • overnighters of funness
  • funner things
  • and I don’t even know. A lot. A lot.

It’s so crazy, ya know? Sigh. Just weird. Last day. The bell just rang… say goodbye to the library computer, say goodbye to the psycho next to me, and wow. I’m done with high school.


Oh, to Wish on a Falling Star… June 2, 2007

Filed under: Deep Moments,Life,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 3:44 pm

I have always been one of those people who wishes. A lot. I’ve been told on several occasions, “You are going to wish your life away, and someday, you will regret it!” But I don’t really do that kind of wishing. Not to be older or smarter or cooler. Instead, I like the little kid type wishing. I can’t even help it. There are so many things to wish on, and each has it’s own type of wish that seems to lend itself to the type.

Dandelions are fun ones. I am one of those people who everyone with a lawn despises because I see the wisher blowy guys and I cheerfully blow and the dandelions spread. Dandelions are for wishes for sunny days, good times, and golden afternoons. You see them and watch as the seeds fly all over, and it seems so appropriate to hope for something warm and sunny.

Stars on the other hand, are for different kind of wishes. The first star of the evening is for wishing for something you want very badly. You wish for the same thing, night after night, on that first star of night. Every time you see it, you whisper your specific wish, stopping only if it comes true. Falling stars, however, are full of opportunity. They are for wishing on a whim. Anything that is on your mind at the moment. These are the fun ones cuz the wish just jumps into your mind, spur of the moment, and just seems to fit.

Then you have the floaty things. You know the ones that you see in the summer and are all kinda fuzzy? Them. They are fun cuz you have to work for them. You see one floating by and have to catch it to earn a wish. Once you have it, you have to let it go again in order to wish. These are for short term wishes and thrills. Something exciting and instant, that doesn’t have to last forever. Like a happy greeting, someone to play tag with, or a glass of cold water. Refreshing wishes, if you will.

There are many other things to wish on, but I find that these are the funnest to me. I know, I know. Wishing is silly, it doesn’t make things happen, it’s pointless, and whatever is going to happen will happen with or without my childish wishing. I am aware of that. But I really do like to make wishes. /me shrugs. I get a strange sense of enjoyment out of it. I may outgrow it… we’ll see. Maybe when all of my wishes come true.


Illogical Thought Processes May 29, 2007

Filed under: creatures,Deep Dark Forests,Life,Randomness,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 1:31 pm

I had the pleasure of watching scary movies last night, and I have quite an active imagination. I am pretty easily freaked out, and I do weird things when I am scared, and it got me thinking of what the other people were doing when they were scared.  I realized, that people really do like, the worst, most illogical things when freaked out. I mean seriously. If there actually was someone/something to be scared of, we would make it so much worse by doing what we do. I mean, think about it. It’s so dumb.

Things people do:

  • Wrap up in a blanket (aka tangle yourself up so as to make it harder to escape if there actually was something coming for you).
  • Cover their eyes (aka not be able to see or prepare for when it approaches).
  • Yell/say incoherent (or worse, coherent) things (aka tell them exactly where you are). << this one is my personal downfall.
  • Hide (aka, prolong the inevitable).

What kind of rituals are these!? So bright. Why don’t we help them some more. Gosh, with our happy help, the aliens, monsters, dead people, giant arachnids, or whatever is haunting your thoughts at any particular time, wouldn’t need to really even try that hard. I’m thinking the ‘bad guys’ are actually probably pretty wimpy, since they really don’t have to work that hard for their victims seeing as we help them so much. Food for thought. If they are all wimpy we shouldn’t be afraid in the first place. but if we weren’t afraid, we wouldn’t do stupid things, and the scary thing would be forced to not be wimpy any more, which in turn would make us scared, because they could actually do bad things. It really is a vicious circle.


What I Learned Today May 24, 2007

Filed under: graduating,Life,Randomness,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 9:05 pm
  • “They don’t care what you’ve done, where you’ve been, they just don’t care.” i think that was supposed to be encouraging.
  • “You can get a better education at WOU than almost any state institution” mental institution? Prison? could you please be more specific?
  • “living on campus is free.” *loud cheering ensues* “er, I mean, parking on campus is free.” *more cheering* <random person who looks mad runs up and talks with the speaker> “oh it isn’t free…” *later* “living on campus is free! I mean parking! I mean eating! I mean it isn’t? *sigh*… and now i get fired.”
  • “and parents? send your kids care packages. I never got any care packages… *long pause*… my parents didn’t send me… anything… *cough* so yea. parents. do that. and you know, if you want to send me one too…” all said in a very sad voice…
  • “they chose decent housing partners…ya know… you may not want to invite them to your wedding, but they wont go and steal your eggs.” um… okay.