I\’m Right

Where ‘Awkwardness’ is the name of the game. Or just the story of my life.

my life January 28, 2008

snow is rapidly losing it’s charm with me. i wake up this morning to snow and was happy. no classes to go to. until i find out that western was hoping to off a few students before breakfast and decided to have classes despite the weather. awesome. i have a rather large knot on my forehead, and some other minor attractive scuffs on my face from last night, and i was thrilled to get to go to school and show it off. /not.  So i wasn’t thrilled.

the drive to school was probably the scariest of my life, as my little saturn is not built for that kind of weather. the ‘low traction’ light was on the whole way and i swear i heard it gasp in terror a few times. or that might have been me. going a top speed of 20 was fun, right up there with my surgery when i was like 6 and the doctors cut a slice off the top of my tongue and i couldn’t eat any sort of salty things for a couple weeks.

even more thrilling was my dad calling as i was about 3/4 the way there. “umm western just decided to delay for 2 hours… not opening until 10.” what the freaking heck. you can’t close the campus at 7:30 for the 8:00 classes. pretty much ruins everything for the people who have to commute.

so, naturally, i am pretty ticked off. and it’s freezing, even with a scarf and a sweatshirt under my warm coat. but i’m like, hey, two hours to work on homework. don’t have any cash of course, can’t get breakfast or anything so i’m like, i’ll just go to the computer lab and do work. maybe write this post. ipod is dead but the computer will keep me company, and i can lessen the crazy load of work for this week. but wait! western surpasses my expectations! everything is closed! locked up and dark. a.mazing.

so…. i sat in my car for an hour. doing math, and being depressed. then went to the library. such is monday morning. and such is my life.


green trucks November 28, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,Life,Randomness,RANT — alwaysbri @ 7:08 pm

Life was just going too great, wasn’t it. Just too much fun, not enough suckyness. Awesome. Couldn’t I have just tripped and embarrassed myself or spilled coffee down my shirt or something? No. Doesn’t work like that. Had to go off the road. Had to watch someone drive off after running me off the road not even caring if I’d gotten hurt (which i didn’t).

I hope the jerk/jerks in the green flatbed truck can live with themselves. Actually, I am hoping they can’t, but that sounds pretty bad. So I’ll say I hope they can. Ok here it is:

I am driving innocently to Western yesterday on south river road. minding my own business and listening to my ipod on shuffle. Which has nothing to do with the story but is a nice little detail. Driving in my beautiful amazing saturn that I love. sigh.

I come around a corner to see a green truck. Facing me. In my lane. and it was completely in my lane, not even partially. I swerve to avoid a head-on collision, my car fishtails and heads toward the opposite side of the road. The driver side hit the embankment and the back of the car bounced up, landing perpendicular to the road. and the jerk in the green truck didn’t even stop to see if i was alright. awesome. how would someone be able to do that?

gah. it frustrates me. but God was definitely keeping me safe. I missed a telephone pole by no more than probably 10 feet. and was within sight of the cement s-curves out there… not to mention the river on the other side of the road. my car ended up in one of the only spots where the side wouldn’t hit anything except the embankment… no trees or rocks or anything. I walked out completely unscathed, besides a minor headache that has turned into a sore neck. the nice policeman took pictures for me tho. here is my car

Car Fiasco

It was really scary… and it just mostly hit me last night. i had kind of a long night… couldn’t sleep that well and kept dreaming about it. blah. but i am ok… my car is not doing so hot though. dunno if it is totaled yet. they had to cut my exhaust pipe off and threw a couple of other parts that had somehow come loose sometime in the crash in my trunk. Dunno if they were minor or not. I visited it today and this is how it looked:

back image122.jpgIt wouldn’t start though so something isn’t going well. I don’t know. just pray it will go ok i guess. that everything will work out?

and that was my day yesterday.


Dream (And a Little Rambling) August 8, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,Deep Dark Forests,Life,Randomness,RANT,Summer days — alwaysbri @ 1:11 pm

Have you ever had a dream you just can’t shake? Like all day you can’t stop thinking about it… I had this awful dream last night, and it’s weird cuz I keep remembering it. Usually I have weird dreams but this one was just scary. I don’t know, it’s weird to not be able to shake it. That happened to any of you before? Anyway… that’s all.

Oh except I want to complain about the weather a bit.

What the heck is this!!?!? August. Clouds. Chilly. It doesn’t work! So so lame.

Alright now i’m done for reals. And if you couldn’t tell this is yet another attempt to create a post with little to go on. I had an amazing post ready a couple days ago then i realized i was wrong so i couldn’t post it, so all you get is this. deal with it.


Dear Mapquest July 4, 2007

Dear John Mapquest,

I never foresaw this day coming, but alas, it has. This just isn’t working for me anymore. If you would have asked me yesterday, I would have said that I was sure we would be together forever, but today I saw the truth. You were only leading me on so that you could let me down, and I got that loud and clear with this afternoon’s happenings.

While I may not have noticed until today, I realize now that it was there all along. I mean, I was always the one doing all of the work in this relationship, and I can’t help but think that you never even cared. I followed your direction, your advice, and I followed it completely. There was no doubt in my mind that you were leading me down the right path, that is until you led me astray. Now I feel that I can’t put my trust in you, because quite frankly, I couldn’t take the feeling of you letting me down again. You never did care, did you?

People warned me that you were no good. They said I would be better off without you, but I was so stubborn! I had faith in you. Faith that was, apparently, misplaced. We can still be acquaintances, but this completely exclusive relationship must end now. It isn’t healthy, for either of us. You obviously cracked under the pressure, and I need a strong system that I can rely on. If you can’t do that, then we should rethink this commitment.

Please understand that I don’t have many hard feelings against you. We go way back, and we had some good times, and awesome adventures. Those days are long in the past, and we need to move on. Thanks for the memories, Mapquest. Perhaps someday we will find ourselves together again. But for now I must go.




My Bitterness, Graduation, and All That Fun Stuff. May 24, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,graduating,Life,RANT,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 1:03 pm

I figured out what Graduation is. Pretty sure.

Graduation. Joy. Caps and gowns of an awfully atrocious color. I am pretty sure whoever chose these had a sick sense of humor.

Really annoying and pointless meetings. Lots of them. I’m serious. There are at least ten different things I could go to, and another dozen things I am required to go to before graduating.

Amazingly busy yet amazingly bored. I feel like there are a zillion things I should be doing at all times, but at the same time, I am sooo bored! Like, I just want to go out and do something crazy, but I have nothing to do! Ack.

Days are numbered until you leave- (16 counting weekends!!)- yet it still seems so far.

Unfortunate casualties. There are a handful of people who aren’t even going to graduate this year because  they were slackers and decided not to do any of the lame  requirements. So dumb. I mean, it isn’t like they haven’t had all year, and this is basically just throwing the last 4 years of highschool down the drain. come on people. don’t be dumb.

A fine line. The principle went off on a hugely long lecture about how pranks would not be tolerated, and that if the kids paint that one hill that they always paint every year, they wouldn’t hesitate to arrest them. Careful, kids. don’t blow it all away by being stupid so close to graduation. So glad I am smart and wouldn’t do something like that.

Teehee. You over hear some weirddd conversations in the hallways this time of year… *cough*

I just don’t understand most of the hype, I have to admit. I feel like I’m going to die or something. Everyone getting teared up and stuff. My life isn’t over, i am just leaving high school, thanks goodness, and if that was ‘life,’ wow. That’s reallllly sad.

 “Oh, why me?”

Nothing I am looking forward to more than getting out of here. Well there are a couple other things I am looking forward to happening, but this is pretty much up there on that list. I daresay tied for first. possibly second. Anyway. it is up there.

Graduation, at it’s finest. Oh, I’m sure it will get better, be fine, and I’ll be glad for everything, but right now it is just seeming kind of lame.