I\’m Right

Where ‘Awkwardness’ is the name of the game. Or just the story of my life.

my life January 28, 2008

snow is rapidly losing it’s charm with me. i wake up this morning to snow and was happy. no classes to go to. until i find out that western was hoping to off a few students before breakfast and decided to have classes despite the weather. awesome. i have a rather large knot on my forehead, and some other minor attractive scuffs on my face from last night, and i was thrilled to get to go to school and show it off. /not.  So i wasn’t thrilled.

the drive to school was probably the scariest of my life, as my little saturn is not built for that kind of weather. the ‘low traction’ light was on the whole way and i swear i heard it gasp in terror a few times. or that might have been me. going a top speed of 20 was fun, right up there with my surgery when i was like 6 and the doctors cut a slice off the top of my tongue and i couldn’t eat any sort of salty things for a couple weeks.

even more thrilling was my dad calling as i was about 3/4 the way there. “umm western just decided to delay for 2 hours… not opening until 10.” what the freaking heck. you can’t close the campus at 7:30 for the 8:00 classes. pretty much ruins everything for the people who have to commute.

so, naturally, i am pretty ticked off. and it’s freezing, even with a scarf and a sweatshirt under my warm coat. but i’m like, hey, two hours to work on homework. don’t have any cash of course, can’t get breakfast or anything so i’m like, i’ll just go to the computer lab and do work. maybe write this post. ipod is dead but the computer will keep me company, and i can lessen the crazy load of work for this week. but wait! western surpasses my expectations! everything is closed! locked up and dark. a.mazing.

so…. i sat in my car for an hour. doing math, and being depressed. then went to the library. such is monday morning. and such is my life.


green trucks November 28, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,Life,Randomness,RANT — alwaysbri @ 7:08 pm

Life was just going too great, wasn’t it. Just too much fun, not enough suckyness. Awesome. Couldn’t I have just tripped and embarrassed myself or spilled coffee down my shirt or something? No. Doesn’t work like that. Had to go off the road. Had to watch someone drive off after running me off the road not even caring if I’d gotten hurt (which i didn’t).

I hope the jerk/jerks in the green flatbed truck can live with themselves. Actually, I am hoping they can’t, but that sounds pretty bad. So I’ll say I hope they can. Ok here it is:

I am driving innocently to Western yesterday on south river road. minding my own business and listening to my ipod on shuffle. Which has nothing to do with the story but is a nice little detail. Driving in my beautiful amazing saturn that I love. sigh.

I come around a corner to see a green truck. Facing me. In my lane. and it was completely in my lane, not even partially. I swerve to avoid a head-on collision, my car fishtails and heads toward the opposite side of the road. The driver side hit the embankment and the back of the car bounced up, landing perpendicular to the road. and the jerk in the green truck didn’t even stop to see if i was alright. awesome. how would someone be able to do that?

gah. it frustrates me. but God was definitely keeping me safe. I missed a telephone pole by no more than probably 10 feet. and was within sight of the cement s-curves out there… not to mention the river on the other side of the road. my car ended up in one of the only spots where the side wouldn’t hit anything except the embankment… no trees or rocks or anything. I walked out completely unscathed, besides a minor headache that has turned into a sore neck. the nice policeman took pictures for me tho. here is my car

Car Fiasco

It was really scary… and it just mostly hit me last night. i had kind of a long night… couldn’t sleep that well and kept dreaming about it. blah. but i am ok… my car is not doing so hot though. dunno if it is totaled yet. they had to cut my exhaust pipe off and threw a couple of other parts that had somehow come loose sometime in the crash in my trunk. Dunno if they were minor or not. I visited it today and this is how it looked:

back image122.jpgIt wouldn’t start though so something isn’t going well. I don’t know. just pray it will go ok i guess. that everything will work out?

and that was my day yesterday.


…and the rest of the randomness September 14, 2007

Filed under: Amusement,Bitterness,I don't even know,Life,Randomness — alwaysbri @ 6:11 pm

so it is like 6. i just got back from my place of employment. i walk in and have this conversation with the guy working:

him- You’re early

me- A little…

him- Well you probably shouldn’t clock in till your shift gets closer

me- I work in like 10 minutes, i think it’s okay.

him- You don’t work until 7 i thought.

me- No, 6.

him- You sure? Check the schedule.

me- I’m sure but i’ll check. *checks* 7. *takes apron and visor off* see you in an hour.



and so it begins.

Got my books today.  $300 dollars, baby.



Dream (And a Little Rambling) August 8, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,Deep Dark Forests,Life,Randomness,RANT,Summer days — alwaysbri @ 1:11 pm

Have you ever had a dream you just can’t shake? Like all day you can’t stop thinking about it… I had this awful dream last night, and it’s weird cuz I keep remembering it. Usually I have weird dreams but this one was just scary. I don’t know, it’s weird to not be able to shake it. That happened to any of you before? Anyway… that’s all.

Oh except I want to complain about the weather a bit.

What the heck is this!!?!? August. Clouds. Chilly. It doesn’t work! So so lame.

Alright now i’m done for reals. And if you couldn’t tell this is yet another attempt to create a post with little to go on. I had an amazing post ready a couple days ago then i realized i was wrong so i couldn’t post it, so all you get is this. deal with it.


Dear Mapquest July 4, 2007

Dear John Mapquest,

I never foresaw this day coming, but alas, it has. This just isn’t working for me anymore. If you would have asked me yesterday, I would have said that I was sure we would be together forever, but today I saw the truth. You were only leading me on so that you could let me down, and I got that loud and clear with this afternoon’s happenings.

While I may not have noticed until today, I realize now that it was there all along. I mean, I was always the one doing all of the work in this relationship, and I can’t help but think that you never even cared. I followed your direction, your advice, and I followed it completely. There was no doubt in my mind that you were leading me down the right path, that is until you led me astray. Now I feel that I can’t put my trust in you, because quite frankly, I couldn’t take the feeling of you letting me down again. You never did care, did you?

People warned me that you were no good. They said I would be better off without you, but I was so stubborn! I had faith in you. Faith that was, apparently, misplaced. We can still be acquaintances, but this completely exclusive relationship must end now. It isn’t healthy, for either of us. You obviously cracked under the pressure, and I need a strong system that I can rely on. If you can’t do that, then we should rethink this commitment.

Please understand that I don’t have many hard feelings against you. We go way back, and we had some good times, and awesome adventures. Those days are long in the past, and we need to move on. Thanks for the memories, Mapquest. Perhaps someday we will find ourselves together again. But for now I must go.




Inflation June 28, 2007

    Early this morning, my littlest sister woke up enthusiastically. Those of you who know my little sister will truly appreciate the true wonder of that statement. And let me tell you, she was on a mission. Got dressed after carefully considering the weather, and bounded downstairs. She strode into the den and grabbed some paper, glue, coloring supplies, and the phone. In my sleepy stupor I noticed little else, that is until I heard her exclaim, “See you at noon!” saw her hang up the phone, and noticed her proudly holding up a paper sign reading “Lemonade! $.50!”

Ah, the lure of the lemonade stand to a kid in the summer. Do not underestimate it’s power. This particular lemonade stand disturbed me on so many levels. I’m serious.

First of all, I remember having lemonade stands at my old house. I used to love to have them. Sharon and I would drag chairs out to the end of the culdesac, a table, lemonade, and a whole lot of cups and ice. There we would sit for hours on end, sometimes joined by Cody, or Carmen down the street. Talking, giggling, having a grand ol’ time… and barely selling any lemonade. In fact, I think we probably had an average of about three customers every time. Our parents would sometimes buy some, and this one guy who lived across from our street would come out and buy some. We would replace the ice about 10 times, and occasionally we would find that we’d drunk all the lemonade, and one of us would run in and make more. Ahh… good times. It kinda makes me a little bit sad to think back to those summer days… we had such fun out there, whether or not we made any money. It was so simple lol. Hehe we’d get discouraged sometimes, and we’d  convince my mom to let us bring out da baby… thinking that it would lure people to our lemonade stand, having that cute little baby out there…

which brings me to the next disturbing point. Emylee was the cute little baby. And now she is the one out there with her best pal attempting to sell lemonade. It’s kind of surreal, truth be told. They are out there sitting side by side, drinking up most of the lemonade they have out there, and occasionally running in for more ice. It’s like deja vu. But not cuz it isn’t me. Just like it’s happened before.

But while many things seem extraordinarily similar,  it is clear that times are not the same. I mean, $.50?? Jeez. Inflation rears it’s ugly head. We used to charge $.15. If we were feeling particularly adventuresome. Not to mention the fact that they have an elaborate chalk mural on the sidewalk in front of their stand. Some things have definitely changed. And yet everything is so freakily familiar. And totally different. All at the same time.

The appearance may be more extravagant then in my day, but the basic idea is the same. Kids, opening a lemonade stand on the side of a dead residential street where 3 people pass by in an hour or two. A couple people stop and take pity, buying a glass or two and leaving an over the top tip with the excuse of not needing change or not having a smaller amount. The kids drink most of the lemonade themselves, the ice melts, and they have a great time. At the end of the day they count the money they’ve made, which looks a lot like that scene in Napoleon Dynamite where Napoleon counts the change he got at the chicken farm place. It is never quite as much as you think it is going to be. The kids split it evenly, excited about it even though they made like a buck fifty each, oblivious to the fact that doesn’t even cover the cost of supplies… craziness. Lemonade stands are so bizarre. They are like a world of their own.

I don’t know. It’s weird lol.


Not So Sentimental Reality Check. June 7, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,graduating,Life,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 3:35 pm

Alright. I have to say, after staying in chem until 4:30, I am feeling less sentimental, more euphoric.


ahahaha… /me continues to laugh manically…


My Bitterness, Graduation, and All That Fun Stuff. May 24, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,graduating,Life,RANT,Reflections — alwaysbri @ 1:03 pm

I figured out what Graduation is. Pretty sure.

Graduation. Joy. Caps and gowns of an awfully atrocious color. I am pretty sure whoever chose these had a sick sense of humor.

Really annoying and pointless meetings. Lots of them. I’m serious. There are at least ten different things I could go to, and another dozen things I am required to go to before graduating.

Amazingly busy yet amazingly bored. I feel like there are a zillion things I should be doing at all times, but at the same time, I am sooo bored! Like, I just want to go out and do something crazy, but I have nothing to do! Ack.

Days are numbered until you leave- (16 counting weekends!!)- yet it still seems so far.

Unfortunate casualties. There are a handful of people who aren’t even going to graduate this year because  they were slackers and decided not to do any of the lame  requirements. So dumb. I mean, it isn’t like they haven’t had all year, and this is basically just throwing the last 4 years of highschool down the drain. come on people. don’t be dumb.

A fine line. The principle went off on a hugely long lecture about how pranks would not be tolerated, and that if the kids paint that one hill that they always paint every year, they wouldn’t hesitate to arrest them. Careful, kids. don’t blow it all away by being stupid so close to graduation. So glad I am smart and wouldn’t do something like that.

Teehee. You over hear some weirddd conversations in the hallways this time of year… *cough*

I just don’t understand most of the hype, I have to admit. I feel like I’m going to die or something. Everyone getting teared up and stuff. My life isn’t over, i am just leaving high school, thanks goodness, and if that was ‘life,’ wow. That’s reallllly sad.

 “Oh, why me?”

Nothing I am looking forward to more than getting out of here. Well there are a couple other things I am looking forward to happening, but this is pretty much up there on that list. I daresay tied for first. possibly second. Anyway. it is up there.

Graduation, at it’s finest. Oh, I’m sure it will get better, be fine, and I’ll be glad for everything, but right now it is just seeming kind of lame.


A Worthy Opponent May 15, 2007

Filed under: Bitterness,creatures,Life,Mythology,Randomness — alwaysbri @ 8:23 pm

I applaud you, David of Troy, and Troy of Troy. Your efforts were valiant. I take my bow, and acknowledge defeat. I was pretty much pwned. My mythology dominating days are a thing of the past, and I will live out the last 3 weeks of my life in ancient Greece coming to terms with the fact that I was conquered by Trojans.

I just remind myself that while they may have won the battle, they lost the war. The Trojan one. And fell for the whole wooden horse thing. So there. Makes me feel a little better. The end.